from Rachel: Growing Through Temptation

Question to consider: What Christlike character quality could I develop by defeating the most common temptation I face?

“May 18

“Faithfulness: my biggest temptation and pitfall is not being willing to end the evening at a reasonable hour and go to bed. Then I can’t get up at a normal time and have a few minutes of personal quiet time before getting Daniel up and getting into the busyness of the day.”

Dearest Rachel –

Some temptations are never quite overcome, I suppose. You knew what your weaknesses were, and occasionally resolved to combat them, but in the end, the nights held too much appeal and the mornings too little. Besides, I was eventually able to modify my schedule slightly to accommodate yours, rather than the other way around, so what need was there to change, you may have wondered?

In short, this was an area that never really saw a whole lot of growth, although you did have that remarkable talent of being able to wake up (or stay awake, depending on the situation) and get things done when the need arose. For all I know, I may have yet to accumulate as many waking hours as you had in life, despite being nearly three years older than you’ll ever be. It’s what you could accomplish in those waking hours that made the difference. Whether that excuses you or not is another story entirely, I suppose.

They say that recognizing that you have a problem is the first step, and I’m sure that’s true. Of course, when you never take any morning than the first step, it’s debatable whether that one step was worth taking. And I realize that this makes me sound like I’m complaining about it; I’m not. I learned to live with it, and if we were always to be out of sync with each other, I’d be more than happy to have you back. As it is, though, I’m not sure whether you’re getting the rest you denied yourself in life, or if you’re getting the time with Him you regretted not taking while you were here. Either way, I suppose it’s a win for you, isn’t it?

Published by randy@letters-to-rachel.memorial

I am Rachel's husband. Was. I'm still trying to deal with it. I probably always will be.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

%d bloggers like this: