Question to consider: What has God already told me to do in His Word that I haven’t started doing yet?
“May 16 (late Sunday night)
“(Sure enough, ACen kept me busy all through Saturday and Sunday)
“What God has been trying to drive home to me in BSF, just as in chapter 24, is the need for daily prayer and Bible study (not just reading). Also, He has been emphasizing the words ‘first fruits,’ as in Malachi. It’s not honoring to Him properly to give Him a little scrap of sleepy, dozing-off time at the very end of the day, or even late afternoon when exhaustion still occasionally catches up with me. I need to make the effort to go to bed a little earlier, get up an hour earlier, and give God the very first part of my day. I know He totally deserves it, yet it’s much easier to acknowledge that with my words than with my actions.”
“Lord, please convict my heart of these facts at such a deep level that I can think from mid-evening on about my intention to honor You by putting You above whatever fun thing I could do from 10 to 12 or 1. May I begin to form a new, better habits. Help me not to resist change, but only to resist temptation.”
Dearest Rachel –
There are times when I almost like myself a little smug, particularly when you talk about trying to get to the point where you’re going to bed early in order to wake up early, because I know how that ended. For all the good intentions you had, this was one you never could manage.
But then you throw a curveball in here, and point out that Bible study is more than just reading, and stop me in my tracks. As much as I make a point of reading (almost) every day, I’m not going to lie and say that I intently study what I’m reading; I can’t even say I do so more often than not. Quite often, it’s an obligation, a habit for me to carry out each day. So it isn’t as if I have anything on you when it comes to this, other than the fact that I generally manage to do it in the morning, when you never could bring yourself to.
Admittedly, like you, I’m not quite convicted enough to change my ways, but it’s said that admitting you have a problem is half the battle, so… I’ll take that much credit.
Although, with that said, I probably should conclude the same way you did: Lord, stir my heart to study what you have to say to me on any given day, and help me apply it to the day in front of me, so that I might honor You better.