“I could and should start doing house work as if I were doing it for Jesus. Especially the jobs I don’t like and generally procrastinate; washing dishes, hanging up clothes, and sorting and cleaning up messy piles.”
Dearest Rachel –
Interesting to see this entry now, just as I’d been learning about ‘secondary losses’ at Grief Share barely twelve hours ago. These were things that always were your domain rather than mine (save for laundering my dress shirts, which you left to me/allowed me to to on my own – I’m not entirely sure which), and now I have to deal with them myself.
For what it’s worth, at least those tasks are being done in your absence now. I can’t say that I’m doing them as if I were doing them for Jesus; I just do them because they need doing.
I have to confess I haven’t really thought about how to do certain tasks as if I were doing them for God. I suppose most of that has to do with my attitude towards the tasks; I just think of them as things that need getting done, and do them. I don’t really consider that I’m trying to please anybody else by getting them accomplished, let alone Jesus. Whether that pleases Him or not, I couldn’t say, but for what it’s worth, I don’t complain or procrastinate, so I guess that’s something…?
Which is not to say I’m doing anything better than you; I had a lot of help from Jan and Kris to get the house in this condition, and I’ll probably continue with that kind of help going forward. What I can’t manage, I’m leaving to professionals. But rest assured, it’s getting done.
Talk to you later, sweetheart. Love you.