from Rachel: Made to Last Forever

“4/23: I should stop staying up past midnight, so that I may be able to start getting up earlier to have some quality time with my Lord. Thus, I should also start reading from the Bible every day and praying diligently and earnestly for family, friends, church, neighbors, etc.”

Dearest Rachel –

It’s a fairly simple assessment, honey. Sometimes the simplest and most succinct are the one freighted with the most meeting. And yet, at the same time, they may also be among the most difficult to fulfill.

Not that I’m in any position to criticize you, at least on this weekend, where staying up past midnight is de rigueur.

Still, I’m afraid this little goal of yours has never accomplished. For whatever time you spent reading from or praying to the Lord, it wasn’t done early in the morning.

In fact, I have no way of verifying if or when you might’ve taken regular time to commune with Him. It may well be that you never had a regular time at all, but managed to carve out times whenever they presented themselves. I simply don’t know; that was between you and the Lord.

If I remember correctly – and I admit, I may very well not – you seemed to know who is in need of prayer more often than I did, and I knew when I had time to be with God. You had a heart for people that I didn’t. Which is not to say that I was heartless, exactly. I just didn’t notice when others had a need, and therefore rarely thought to pray for anybody else.

But you did, or you seemed to. You were the moral center of the family, much as I realize I should have been. I guess that at this point it’s my turn to step up to the plate, and fill the role I was supposed to.

As always, wish me luck, honey.

Published by randy@letters-to-rachel.memorial

I am Rachel's husband. Was. I'm still trying to deal with it. I probably always will be.

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